Poet Vladislav Khodasevich and his young Muse: “All the time about you, day and night about one you…»
They met once, to firmly tie the knot. Vladislav Khodasevich was one of the best poets of the Silver age, Nina Berberova – his young Muse, who later became a famous writer. It seemed difficult to find two people so different from each other. And at the same time it is difficult to imagine Vladislav Khodasevich and Nina Berberova without each other. What could possibly connect two such different people?
They first met in 1921, a famous poet and a young enthusiastic provincial, who arrived in Petrograd from Rostov-on-don. At a literary evening he read his poems from a new collection, and after Nina came to Khodasevich for an autograph. Yes, so confused that instantly forgot all the prepared words. He gave her a book with his autograph and was amazed at the childish delight with which Nina kissed the cover.
Funny after she mangled his first name, was embarrassed and for two hours he read his poems, particularly in emotional areas lightly touching his arm. Vladislav Khodasevich was absolutely fascinated. And from that day began to meet Nina in the evenings after her studies at the Institute of art history. He was older than Nina for 15 years and, in General, could not offer her anything. He could not bring himself to stay at home tonight.
New year they met in the House of writers, where Nina got at the invitation of Vsevolod Rozhdestvensky. But she left there with Vladislav Khodasevich. They wandered around Petrograd, circling in the crowd celebrating, and then turned into snow-covered alleys to cling to each other with cold lips.
Madness of passion
He fell in love, forgetting about everything. Vladislav could not live a day without this immediate and at the same time solid beauty, knowing exactly what she wants from life. Nina was struck, in addition to talent, by his vulnerability, defenselessness, and inability to be rude. They came together as two opposites.
Initially Khodasevich was afraid to reveal this charming young lady the truth about myself. And well would have kept silent only about poor health and his addiction to gambling, but he did not even hint that he was not free. Nina was repeatedly stayed with him all night, but once Korney Chukovsky, with whom they were friends, said about the imminent return of Nura, wife of Khodasevich from the resort. Anna Chulkova Grecian with which the poet was married in 1917, after moving to Petrograd fell ill with tuberculosis and was sent for several months for treatment at Children’s village.
When she returned, she immediately noticed the presence of another woman in her husband’s life. However, he did not even think to hide: immediately told about the novice poet Nina Berberova. At first, Nyura could not correctly assess the scale of the disaster. It seemed to her that this hobby of the spouse will pass as quickly as passed at other writers. However, it was much worse.
Repeatedly Vladislav Khodasevich Nura promised to break up with Nina. But after three days of separation from his beloved fell into a natural trance. He began to pray and gradually his pleas turned into a never-ending cry. Nura could not stand, she ran after Nina, so she calmed poet.
When Nyura with her husband went to the country, Khodasevich assured his wife of a complete break in relations with Nina. And then wrote letters to the beloved by passing them through Chukovsky in order conspiracy. His love fever was incurable.
Chance for salvation
After returning from the dacha Khodasevich came to Nina and asked her to run with him abroad. He couldn’t say goodbye to his wife, but he couldn’t live without his Nina. The flight both of them thought, then salvation. Khodasevich was simply haunted by visions of a hopeless future in Russia. He genuinely believed, that survive they can only abroad.
Nina believed her beloved person, and he used all his connections to straighten out the passport to himself and Nina Berberova. For all he went to Europe for treatment, and Nina went to continue her education.
Unfortunately, abroad they could not become really happy.
Unfortunately, the talents of Vladislav Khodasevich abroad has become simply disappear. When the passports expired, the poet and his Muse decided to go to Paris. But there they were both bitterly disappointed.
He suffered from lack of demand, his critical articles refused to print, because they considered the poet and his opinion outdated. Poems and at all not??? to press. Nina, trying to somehow cope with the need, took up any work: embroidered, signed postcards, wrote notes in the newspaper.
At this time its Vlad all the more plunged into depression. He could no longer write a line, and suffered, not being able to Express their feelings and emotions in verse. Khodasevich began to suffer from insomnia and kept Nina awake, demanding that she listen to him, sympathize, comfort. In the morning the young woman fell asleep, clutching her pajamas favorite to warm her warm body. In case the poet decides to sleep.
But she already knew even a little bit and she will disappear. She could no longer be near a man who had almost buried himself alive and was lying on the couch all the time, staring at the wall.
In literary and emigrant circles, Nina’s departure from Khodasevich was considered a betrayal. She was just trying not to lose herself. Before leaving the poet, she repaired all his clothes and prepared food for three days. And after his departure every day met with former beloved. In addition, she agreed with her grandmother,a neighbor, that she visited Khodasevich three times a day, and she washed in exchange for this old woman’s underwear.
For some time the poet still hoped for Nina’s return. He was waiting for her to find out how much he needed her. Nina soon fell in love and got married. Khodasevich also got married. If Nina’s marriage was the most real, the Khodasevich didn’t care. They still sometimes met, only already four of them.
When Vladislav Khodasevich fell seriously ill, Nina was with him in the hospital with his wife, Olga Margolina. His farewell words were addressed to Nina, the love of his life:
He passed away in June 1939. Nina Berberova survived it for 54 years, moved to America, and left behind a great creative heritage. Nina Berberova died in 1993.